Warning-----negative post ahead

I don't think that I am a negative person,I always try to see the positive side of things, but the past couple of weeks have really taken it's toll on my emotional state.Paranoia about work has set in and wanting to do things and unable to do them is really getting to me.Even down to the simplest of things like taking a shower.Have to undress and place a bag over my leg, taping it up, and then hobbling into have a shower.All these things are so taken for granted when you are able to move around freely.I can't stand for long to cook dinner, wash dishes, being in a high set house, it is hard to get up and down the stairs.Yesterday, I nearly fell down them head first, so it has really made me re-think being able to go back to work.
Concerning work, I rang my boss this morning and talked about my concerns, and that I thought it would be easier for all involved that I don't come back for a few more weeks yet.She was great about it and understood, but then proceeded to tell me that she can't see me getting the 15 hours a week next year that I will HAVE TO WORK each week ....so centrelink has told me.So after getting off the phone and thinking too much...I start crying and thinking....well that is real great.Just what I needed to add to my already emotional state.Something about the fact that my hours are all dependent on special needs alocation/funding, and that she can't see me getting much of a regular timetable.
So i am sitting here now tears running down my face, as I feel like all is against me right now.I know it really isn't as bad as all that, but with the way I am feeling....it does to me.I know there are lots of people in the world a lot worse off than me, but it doesn't make me feel any better.All I can say is, that I wish I hadn't gone and played that darn game of tennis.Life would be a lot simpler.

If you managed to read all the way through this drivel, then you have done well.Hopefully next time I post , things will be a lot brighter.